Life can take you places
In all fairness, my life is going in a wonderful direction but I miss the creativity of this place, and so I will not promise to be back here for good, but I promise that I will make more of an effort with you wonderful creative hearts
Since graduating from the University of Derby, life has been pretty busy, and I won't bore you with all the details but here's what I have been up to (and hopefully this may explain my absence)
- I was in a terrifying car crash in September 2014 which took a while to heal from, both emotionally and physically. Thankfully, I no longer have night terrors so I feel it has been put to bed now.
The crash prompted Rob for the next bullet point though, so it's not all bad! - I got engaged! Rob whisked me away to Tenerife on the 31st January 2015 and proposed. We get married on the 15th April 2017, and I cannot wait!
Throwing myself into wedding planning is my creative lease in life and I am hoping to build up on my career as a wedding and event planner in the future 
- We bought our first home together last July, and it's awesome! I am obsessed with decoration and interior design magazines though, and redecorating at the same time as a new job and planning our wedding is tiring! :exhausted:
I no longer write poetry as much as I want to and I no longer read as much as I need to, and so this is my promise to let life slow down a few notches and rediscover dA, and my love for all things creative.
For now, my wonderful lovelies, I am going to scrawl through the recent deviation submissions and blogs you have all been posting recently. Much love
I've done it!
Actually, I finished on the 1st of May but I've been celebrating on holiday with my Robert
we went to West Sussex, exploring places such as Battle where the Battle of Hastings took place as well as Dover, Brighton and Eastbourne. We had such a lovely time, and now it's back to reality and work. 
I have a job interview on Friday for a Recruitment Consultant in Birmingham, and I just hope I get it
I am currently working as a Receptionist at a hotel quite close by, and the one thing I have learnt is that you can be as nice as you can be to people and they'll still find a way to insult you. The sort of job snobbery I've experienced is quite disheartening, and so I've made the decision to find a new role where there will be more room for progression. I love working with people I just don't like being made to feel stupid because of what my job title is. How have you all been? I'm hoping to be back on here at least once a week now, so any inspiration for writing etc. would be greatly appreciated!
Where I have been and PCOS
Hello everyone,
I am slowly coming back onto dA - I have been reading and viewing all of your art pieces recently. I haven't 
anything simply because I didn't want to make my presence back on here so known yet. I know it has been such a long time since I've really interacted on dA but it's slowly starting to happen again.
I have been keeping a personal blog and diary to keep my head clear of my studies and issues which are currently going on. I'm nearing the end of my degree in BA History, with just my dissertation and 2 more modules to go. I have no idea what I want to do after I graduate, but there are quite a few plans in the pipeline including numerous graduate schemes and job applications.
I have been a bit detached from my studies recently, which may be down to me 'hitting the wall', but I have also been recently diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). PCOS is an endocrine disorder and can result in the ovaries developing cysts, high masculinising hormones, infertility, being overweight, ovarian cancer, heart disease and diabetes type 2. I currently only have cysts, masculinising hormones, excessive hair growth, lack of ovulation and being slightly overweight - so far, I should count my lucky stars aye?
It's left me in a place where I feel unsure of my future and I feel like I'm not in control of my own body anymore. It's something which has really knocked my confidence, which I guess is why I have started writing again as a way of distracting myself from how I feel.
I'm currently doing some research into how I can manage it beyond just following a gluten-free diet, but there's so little information out there it's frustrating!
Anyway, this is why I am slowly moving back to dA as writing and networking through my work helped during the years where I felt I had no one else to talk to. Writing, pens, paper, my poetry all became my salvation and I hope to find that again.
If there's anything you wish for me to see then please let me know,
Happy Belated New Year
Unfortunately I have been unable to have some time to myself over Christmas as I anticipated due to the busy nature of.. well, Christmas I guess. Thank you to those who wished me a happy birthday in December, it's wonderful to know people on here still care and think of me even if I am a bit absent and distracted.
I always think back to deviantArt as a way of release and recovery, and I guess that is why I am writing this journal now. I very rarely talk about my emotions or what's going on in my life, but I find it a lot easier to write about them. Yesterday two young adolescent lads, aged between 17 and 19, tried to take my bag from me as they rode past on bikes. They didn't take my bag as I held on quite tightly, however the speed in which they rode past and the shock of the incident meant I lost my footing and I managed to fall on my arm, hips and hand. I am incredibly sore and grouchy from lack of sleep, and I am unable to move my little finger so I am going to the doctors tomorrow to check there isn't anything more serious going on.
I am okay despite being in pain, but it just makes me think how ruthless people can be to think they have the right to hurt people and try to steal their things. The bag was still taken as evidence by the police and it was a Christmas present from Rob, so I am really upset about this too and the fact that I am so far away from my other half who makes me feel safe and happy. I have had hardly any sleep and can't eat as my stomach muscles hurt as well as my hip which has a considerable amount of swelling on it. I've cut my knee open too, so just really uncomfortable.
Either way, I am sorry for having such a long time away from deviantArt, and I am also sorry that it is only when I am hurt or ill that I find comfort in what dA has to offer, and the community in which I can disappear into. I want to go home to my parents' home, but most of all I just want to rest with Rob and have him hug me (just not hugging my hip as it hurts too much).
Just needed to let off some of my thoughts - feeling quite fed up at the moment
To keep up to date
There's more on there as to why I am quiet and what I've been up to. No literature has been written as yet but I have been involved with press releases and such, and writing debates, so feel free to have a gander.
Also Twitter: @Sammie1312
See ya!